Sorting through the dictionary to find the perfect word. Melancholy isn't quiet right but its the closest I've gotten so far. Hours spent on this meaningless task and yet I cant get out of the mind set of 'I have else nothing better to do.'

The rain makes me sleepy. But the thunder keeps me awake. Laying in this bed, I think I've slept for too long, or is it that I have been up for 3 days? I don't know. Forgetful is another good word that comes to mind.

Either way I have no desire to leave the protection of my blankets, the barrier of my walls and the pillows that brings the temporary comfort I need to keep away the lonelies.

That actually is a depressing thought, when one thinks about it. Okay scratch what I said, melancholy is the exact word I am looking for.