Saturday, January 21, 2012

-Charles Bukowski


If I never see you again
I will always carry you
inside
outside
on my fingertips
and at brain edges
and in centers
centers
of what I am of
what remains.

-Charles Bukowski

Monday, January 16, 2012

The awakening moments of vibrancy


She wakes to yellow light breathing on her skin from cracked doors.
The ethereal hues half captures her attention.
White noise drowns the other half. 
She listens as the tilt bed gushes to the ceiling, about the
lovely intertwined colors under its blankets. 
Her silver shines vibrant and erogenous as neon sex in a window.
Emollient scents the sheets and perspiration licks her flesh,
With redolent perfume and vibrants moments she drifts back to sleep




The the


Red robin, Red robin
you are so lovely with your
violent red blushing breast,
sharp and pointed
eyes that, gleamed like
metal in the sun reflecting
off morning dew.
Standing proudly with
your vivacious red chest
radiating. Perched with
pride on a branch outside
my windowpane as if
saying look at me world!
Look at me while I stand
and extol trills of good mornings.
O! sweet Red Robin
while you did look
brilliant you appear
so much more alive
through the scope of
my Beretta 92FS BB
gun, at 4:49 a.m.
seconds before I
pulled the
trigger. 

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Mots dans la matinée

Sinking in purgatory between the
witching hour and the suns awakening.
I am not sorry for the wandering of my
soul, nor the slow enlightening of
the moon light across my ceiling.
My soul is a soul that shifts, restlessly
inside their minds, searching for my other.
Within seconds I am a moiety without a body in
between 5:22 and betwixt 6:56. After shifting
through Merlot wine bottles I collect the
sleep from my eyes, pour them into the hour
glass, and give cheers to the being sitting
behind the moon. Minutes burn and hours chase
the weariness away, heightening my awareness.
But still seeing blurred faces and feeling hands as I
sink into purgatory between and betwixt
the witching hour and the suns awakening.

Friday, January 13, 2012

3:49 AM Skygazer

You dont know her 
untill you've seen her at 3:49 am.
Watch her stare across the Sky's body
Settled on the Earth
and lost in space of the Night's eyes


Do you know how to relate to her as she confides to the stars? Because who eles is there to speak with? The stars and the moon is a constant in her life and always will be. Unlike the lovers and friends that are vibrant and warm in her presence but poignant and cruel with the absense. 

Do you know now why she cries? Her fate as all other humans is to live passionate and exciting but quick lives. Love quickly, cry quickly, smiles, dance, embrace, praise, and encourage quickly. Can moments spent in her loneliness be truly understood by others and can anyone but a loner truly understand what it is like to be a star? 

Saturday, January 7, 2012

What it is to be a fuck up.

Cunning and emotionally destructive with lies thick like honey. Too sweet to resist. We cant even restrain ourselves. But it is especially alluring to the newly made butterflies, who unlike us is not used to the flith. Whom are the easiest to corrupt. We fuck up are addictives, the glorfied heroine and drunken escapes of the gutter world.

Friday, January 6, 2012

Free Falling

Her world is a flat surface, curious feet always seem to take her to the edge. Counting each black and white tile at her zenith. Keep your sunshine she say. I want to be the rain, because while afriad of heights, i dont mind the fall just as along as I am not falling alone.

But until you come she will stand at the edge.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Union of the Tress

Before you fall in love, you see the other person as a bare branch; as you fall, you coat him or her with jeweled attractions about 80 percent of your own making.

My bare branches
enlongates towards the
sky. Praises are hidden within
my petals at the possibility
to grow. I wish to flower
your being. Grow as a
your bark
to warm
us during
the snow
storms.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

A Series of Seven

Humans are so easily swayed.
Lured by gilded promises of hollow
trinkets, in exchange for
a continued existence vainglory.

Lust is the physical
manifestation of vulnerability
in the feminine divide. Worshiped
crudely he turns her vulgar and ashamed.

Pride is the self-entitlement
of the neighbors home. Tailored
fit, aloof dispositions. Stay
calm while we spit on your culture.

Wrath knows what knife will
cut deepest. What another's blood under
our fingernails, teeth grind to the
gum feels like

Sloth gives too little, to help the soul.
Glutton takes too much, to feed others.

Humans covet
the things we see around us. Envy
is the colonialism that has grown
too powerful because my pockets will
never be empty.

Burnt Out



Derek Hess
You didnt want to die,
But you didnt care to really live either.

Faces in the rain

I tell her,
I want to be like raindrops.

That I don't mind falling,
as long as I am not falling alone.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Procrastination

Oop, hello ground
it’s been a while
you look well
gritty and hard
like I remember

good old ground
we’ve always got on right?
me and you

ground I promise
I never forgot about you
it’s why I thought
we wouldn’t meet again

alas here we are
toe-to-toe
hold on a sec
my heels want to say hello

oop, alright sky
how you been?
I just saw the floor
and I’m sure he’d send
his regards

I guess you two
see each other all
the time though
I wouldn’t know

been looking at
the horizon for ages
it changes you know
but it doesn’t get
any closer

I’ll stay here a minute actually
me and you have got some
catching up to do.

-Tumblr

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I climbed
A poet's
Tree last night
To wrap myself in it's
Leaves and pretended the branches
Were your arms.

I don't mind the splinters it gives
Me because unlike the ones you give me
I can
Pull them out.

And as much as I would have like to
Take a pocket knife and carve lines
Couplets, haiku's, limricks, sonnets...
lines into the brown bark and pretend it
Was your skin, or my skin.

I couldnt.

I can't do much of anything now a days
Maybe I am just a morning glory
lost withing a tangle
of vines.
I am Blue as the crying sky.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Poem written and performed by Skim Skima

I’m catching gazes that aim to catch gays.
Your eyes.
You ask me why I choose to look how I look.
My answer is the same question, back to you.
Homosexual. Put yourself in my shoes.
Gay bitch. I bet you can’t even imagine what I’ve been through.
How damaged I am, because of you.
It’s true I wanna love who I love.
And more honest I am. The more you wanna mess me up.
You said, my judgment day will come.
Well it did. Day after day. Gay.
Night after night. Dike.
You think being gay was a choice in my life?
Who would really choose to face this kind of hate?
They way they say it, you’d think I was Satan.
Don’t you see? Your hypocrisy is so blatant.
Stop complaining others are racist when you’re doing the same thing in my face.
Your eyes attack my faith. Faggot
And give me shame I can’t seem to erase
So I ask god to save a mess like me, but leave me blind
because I hate what I see.
Faggot. Silence I mask it.
Faggot. Everybody laughing.
Faggot. While I’m standing here
Disgusted that I can still feel disgusting.
No wonder I am so not trusting.
Look at me. And look at this world I am in.
And look at me again.
I know what exactly most of you see.
So let the names begin.
Cuz I guess I must trust my pain so much.
Enough to let it come inside me. Again and again.
And I must love the connection it brings from my heart to yours.
But I would never love the ways it burns.
I got a lot to learn. But some things I was born to teach.
Close your eyes and feel how deep I can reach.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Why I secretly hate mirrors

I really feel strange every time I look into a mirror. I forget that I have a form, and I get used to thinking of myself as the "thinker", and not the objectively viewed person. It's hard to get a definite view of yourself when you know everything, and know just how complex you are.

The mirror shows 'you', plain and simple, you might think of it as viewing your purest form (although that couldn't be more wrong). I am shocked at the sight of 'me' I don't recognize myself, even if I have only looked away for a second. I am staring at a stranger. I know that it is not a good representation of me, but mirrors remain a way to force your physical reality upon you.

Stream of conscienceless, the making of grief point

The Making of Grief Point


The journey starts late...
Six weeks into the making of Grief Point...
First off is May Day, the song in honor of May 1st and the workers.
Can you still be against the strike that only strikes for more pay?
By ‘you,’ in this instance, I mean ‘me.’
There is a certain kind of person to whom things come with great facility.
They say this is the noise that gets made as my life is lived.
So be it.
But don’t feel the need to record it.
For a second I thought this meant that they were not interested in history, but that’s wrong.
Wrong, wrong.
A bad reading of the situation.
The right reading is that I just don’t understand it.
At all.

Grief Point, and May Day by extension, suffers from the same old shit:
A potential complete ignorance of ambiance, real ambiance, in that
can you really construct it, every last bit of it,
and just let the listener feel its effects?
And is this the right treatment?
Always the same question.
In this case, I would maybe say yes, just because it forces form onto the thing.
"Thing" is a bunch of words to melodies, and the words sung in a handful of ways.

Between J and D, of course, the same old war rages;
one into a tight and perfect digital palace, but super true to the genre,
the other wanting to throw in actual sounds, mix it up, humanize.

It's cool how for my part, this sleight of hand,
the trick of making something confounding and great and potentially horrible, drawn up from air...
all this is no longer of any interest.
In fact, even seeing things in this light depresses me.
And so I often come home at night depressed by what we have done, what we are doing.
It's good, it means I've changed.

I have lost interest in music. It is horrible.

I should only make things I understand.
I should only make things I know how to construct, however imperfect.
It's not even like dictating to someone; it's less than that.
May Day itself is pretty cool, I have to admit.
It condemns the world at such an easy pace.
I intend to tell it to you... it’s like happy shooting rockets,
a disgusting description of anything, to be sure.
I think the world does not like me grim; it likes me melancholic but not miserable.

English on the Mediterranean, which is oddly enough, some of the worst people there is.
At some point when it is made, I will explain this record word-for-word, swear to God...
When I know if that is good or bad, I’ll know what is good and what is bad.


The answer to the making of Grief Point is picnic baskets filled with blood.

Too rich, nothing at stake.

If "blank" had to write lyrics for his songs, they would be cumbersome, pale blocks, like his riffs, but pale.
So instead, he went out and found a wailer, too stupid to commit to a single thing.

I assume not lighting up at the sight of your mother is a sign of madness in an infant.
Pattena, no name for a baby...
you were first born before they threw you from the bridge.

Wagner wrestles his dogs to the floor.
Such a beautiful scene for some.
They write plays, don't perform them.

The message from the critical reception of Dreams was quite clear:
We will not be listening to you any further.
Of course, some tension is created;
Cosmonaut in a breadline, etc.

I watched a pig devour the classics just to get to you.
The barge endlessly circling, your mind finds out.
It is done.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

ArtPrize Cathedral Square Review

September 28, 2011
ArtPrize Cathedral Square Review

A community not so far away;
Cathedral Square
By: me

ArtPrize has the tendency to bring out the child in all people, whether they are an actual 8 years old or 60 doesn’t make a difference. Art for the sake of art is hard to come by and usually with an event of ArtPrize size there is no keeping out the under appreciators who cannot see the beauty in a non-traditional piece or place.

A question that comes up a lot for first time Artprize goers is, ‘Where in the world are we supposed to start?” With art to see everywhere it is easy to get sweep away in the spectacle of it all and miss the smaller more majestic places. One such place is The Roman Catholic Diocese of Grand Rapids' Cathedral Square. Cathedral Square participated last year in ArtPrize but just as an outside venue, but that changed this year. Cathedral Square transformed itself into a land of art by accepting the position of being one of the seven exhibition sight center where people could go resister and vote.

But what makes Cathedral Square the best place to begin is the site being one of a few places that offers free-parking. The square itself is not easy to miss thanks to a 24ft. steel sculpture name “Whirling Dervish.”-Ruth Migdal-Brown is the artist responsible for the 7,000-pund piece and says the bright red giant monument represents movement and dance. Inside there are 24 pieces of art, in the gardens and, the Healer Plaza supplying the venue with a total of 32 pieces. However there are sums of 35 artists, for Cathedral Square features collaborative art as well. The Square is the right amount of distance away from the heart of downtown to have a calming and warming aura that escapes the other venues, but still manages to attract enough people to withhold a reassuring sense of community.

When asked to give a small statement about Cathedral Square Center and ArtPrize, the sites curator Ron Pederson, a professor of art at Aquinas College and also an ArtPrize artist himself said in a previous MLive story “We wanted work that would encourage contemplation, that would allow the viewer to understand something of the artist's spirit and something of the spirit of the community within which she or he is working.”